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"oh my god.......OH MY GOD!!!!" is what i said when i saw the blank, pale face of a dead man.

yesterday, August 11, 2009.

it was just another freakin' boring day and my house... i just got up, put on some clothes, fixed my hair...
ate some lunch... same old same old.

later i said to my sister, "you know i think i should go riding on the 4-wheeler today..." and then said " OH! and maby the day before school, we could go ride it together in the feild!! ^_^ that'd be awesome..."

then the conversation ended.

THEN after dinner i finally asked my step dad and my mom if i could go 4-wheeling (they're kinda over-protective) and while my step dad got it ready and the golf cart moved i whent into our empty room to get the helmet from the closet. (aww... it was so warm in there and it smells sooooo good because of the candles in there)

then i ran out the house, and onto the seat of the ride and snapped the buckle of my helmet, then drove off.

i drove around the alley and the empty lot between two nice houses, then whent back to ask my stepdad if i could go to the big feild.

(there is this huge feild that has trails through it. and deep into it has an open space and a very small lake. across from the feild are a small set of trees, that are all close together, and a huuuuge dry feild of prairie dogs! lots of people go there to ride their bikes, take pictures, or walk and play fetch with their dogs. there, i see atleast a small group of people go there between lunch or the evenings)

ok, so when i was driving through the path i got kind of scared that this huge bird that lives on top of the huuuuuge electric pole would come and try to attack me. (it was like a hawk or somthing...)
but when i was about to go in the feild through the trail that leads to the little lake... out of the corner of my eye... i saw a mans face! HE HUNG HIMSELF!!!!!!!!!!!

his face.. was so pale and was so expressionless... i cant remember anything else i saw of him besides the rope, and his pale face, and the orange tint of the evening sky.....

i drove right past him, stopped (rather quickly) reversed, and drove back home as fast as i can, without looking at him a second time...saying, "oh my god... OH MY GOD!!!!!"

when i got home, (my step dad was on the porch) i immediatly told him to call the cops.

we whent over to the body (obviously i stayed far enough that i couldnt see him) then my stepdad asked me, "What did you think when you saw him..?" i replied rather stupidly, "i dont know.. 'oh my god, a dead man' ?"

so yea.. we called the cops and the policman said " okay we'll take care of it."

then later tons of cops and vans showed up, tons of people in our neighborhood came out saying, "whats going on?!?!"

my god...

i told my best friend and my dad on the phone and everybody else on myspace...

(what's funny is that my mom was at a Choir meeting for my sister, and in the middle of it my mom got my step's call what happend then she said "Im sorry i got to go. My daughter found a dead guy!" then sister and my Choir teacher said "Oh My goodness!")

now i definitly have something to talk about to my choir teacher when i get back to school XD

HAHAHA...(but that still is scarey D:)

but now that i think about it.. that taught me something.

it taught me... to live life at it's fullest. not to let anything get me down. ending your life means.. that you are weak. living your life means that you are strong.

my friends.... you are strong. We are strong.